thing's had been going out of hands.
It's getting out of control, too much for me to handle.
I'd tried ways to fight it, it just kept failing.
It's like a long battle, and i kept on losing the fight.
Give up? I thought of it days ago.
But wait, do i give up so easily? No.

But wait, can i handle it? No.

So, what should i do?
Jump off the building and die?
chop my hands off, no more drumming?
Throw all my books away, no more studying?

Or just simply, fight on.
It's a harsh decision guys, a very harsh one.

i'm facing a big emotional rollercoaster. Huge one, One which made me lose things which i have months ago. Fucked up Studies and time management are defintely two huge push factors to all these.

Tell me, how? Teach me what to do, because i myself don't know.




and no, it's not about her.


Anyway on a brighter note,
IT'S 11th MONTH WITH NADINE HASHBROWN TOMORROW!.
Sorry honey, for not being able to spend time with you tomorrow, blame the dumb camp, actually, blame me, for not being stupid to join it, not considering my lousy grades and stuff.
oh well. I love you. Sorry for being emo nowadays. I still love you as much.