I'm SORRY=[

i know i shouldn't have went with my dad..
and went to ur place instead..
but..they wanted me to go..and it's like rare..
but i wanted to go to ur place too..
family and you..
i got myself deep into this dilemma..
so so deep..
when i finally went over it and chose you,
they didn't let me go...
so i had no choice..but to follow them unwillingly..
to tell you the truth,
i didn't want to go in the first place...
i was thinking of you the whole trip...
seeing couples together everywhere just makes me felt so empty and lost..
how i wish you were there too...
how i wish..
when i called ur house, and ur brother said you're sleeping, i felt bad..
you shouldn't be sleeping..
you should be smiling with me at the staircase..
but..
it's all my fault..
i didn't cherish this day again..like how i did for the past few ani.
honey,
i am really really very sorry
forgive me, will you?